"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
What would I be without you both?Probably not much.A thought I don't like to imagine often,But,it comes across here and there every time I cough,And,Realize how neglectful I am of your presences,Yet,I have no idea how to take care of you both while I search for an answer.An answer so difficult to find when a... Continue Reading →
A year of abstinence from inhaling chronic to set the record straight.My vices aren't in charge as I doctor myself back to good health,And,Tune into the fate in which God has made for me by wrapping my palms around another page,Another pen,Another poem I recite as I find my way back home within a stage.No... Continue Reading →
Assimilation has never been my style.Quite frankly,I'd rather be what God intended me to be.A man free from labels I was once forced to believe,Would lead me through a path worthwhile.Labels like drunk,Pot head,And,Rich!When all I really was,Was a child who tripped and fell into a ditch,Never to be found again until I rose from... Continue Reading →
Seeking asylum,Isn't what I thought it was as I'm reaching for my blunt,Going insane while I'm leaning on my guts,From the astral plane when I get high up,Out of my body with bodies in my mind trying to get violent,Anything for some silence...At least it's how I feel nowadays.Mayday!I scream internally as I'm on a... Continue Reading →
How do I survive?Every single night without a woman to suffice,My need for a touch deeper than the high,I get from a climax coming down like,Any other drug?All I want is love.And,A moment where I flush,Every ounce of blood,As red as the cheek of my beloved when I pucker up,And,Lay a kiss on the forehead... Continue Reading →
Haven't wanted to live for quite a while.Because,The feeling of breathing is soothing only if there's smoke flowing through my lungs.Love?Lost in pyros of pain ignited in the name of lust.One flick of my lighter,Still,Doesn't seem like it's enough to burn away these thoughts cluttering my mind while I crush,Buds while picturing everyone I've put... Continue Reading →
Everything else is better than sex,Drugs,Alcohol,Whatever gets you high for that matter.Back when they were all I thought about,My reality had shattered.Anytime I looked into a mirror,I was cracked further away from repair,Every second I stared into a man I believed wasn't there,Any longer...Anytime I hear glasses cling,As a sober man nowadays,It's music to my... Continue Reading →
Let go,Let go,Let go...Why must I do so?Why can't I have one bodily desire that doesn't equate to fool's gold?Desires that wouldn't blind my eyes from the value love brings,Till I'm too broken to pay for sins more than a few know?All I want is a one night stand,Some booze,And,A few rolls of weed until... Continue Reading →
My first birthday completely sober from any substance!What can I say?I'm grateful for the walk God put me on instead of staying slumped in,A ditch I thought I'd never climb out of after tripping over so many bumps on a road where running is not an option.A road where a slow pace wins the race... Continue Reading →
Feeding,A demon,With reasons,Your heaving!In vomit,While coughing up smoke,Upping the dosage for a moment of hope,In all of it's falsity?A fatality for those lost in endless animosity,Against an image once portrayed by hues of love,Stained by every opportunity taken to go for blood,Tainting all of what you could've been if,You had never given up.And,For what?Drugs?A drink,What... Continue Reading →
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