"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Loneliness.I'm attached to it the same way an apple is attached to the branch of a tree.Deeply rooted in soil as dead as the inner-child left dangling inside of me.Yet,Still.I'm watered by an entity I can't see.All I see is darkness while wobbling to its breath every time It breathes.In,And,Out,Until I fall off and roll... Continue Reading →
Is it real?Is it fake?Who knows anymore?But,What does it matter,Anyway?Because,As old and tragic as the "news" gets,We still treat each other like,That view full of darkened hues our eyes wish to forget.Like,Gleaming bright colors on a canvas we paint over for an image we end up throwing out before the paint ever sets.The only disaster... Continue Reading →
Drifters have no place in the world,But,That's okay.We leave our marks,In a world so scarce of love,In hopes to leave a smile on someone's face.In hopes to change what we yearn to change,In hearts made of stone when staring into Medusa's gaze.The snake slithering in grass we often forget to cut.The bane of our existence... Continue Reading →
Freedom,Is what you gave me by leaving,Regardless of how wrong it was to hurt you.Your departure gave my life more meaning,More than the moment you said,"I love you…"As I was left to work through,My vices.All alone,Within a glass home shattering above me,By the vibrations of your silence… Here I am,Now sober at the end of... Continue Reading →
Ties,Ties,Ties!They just don't suit me right.Feels more like,A noose choking to death,The kind of tranquil man I yearn to become in a world ran by financial success and duress,And…A suit is not part of who I am,Nor ever will it be for as long as I hold a journal and a pen… It's the only... Continue Reading →
Blowing steam,To iron out some things.To flatten out the creases in my mind before I blink,On a stage!Where I present my pain,With a smile I have to force until it feels real on a face I barely want to see… More of my muscles are in use the more I glower,Like an owl,Perched on the... Continue Reading →
Incase… Just in case this is the last opportunity I'll ever get to flush out a soul dirtied with bad memories I feel forced to remember above all else from the first second of each morning I don't want to wake. And, I get it. I'm blessed. To still have my family around. To still... Continue Reading →
Sober thoughts are so exciting!Like,Being able to smile without feeling like a criminal on the loose.Like,A trip to Cold Stone just because I can with nothing inside of my ailing heart to lose… Often I scream for an abundance of freedom my inner child keeps demanding for good reason!Yet,Fear of a different life shrouds my... Continue Reading →
Haven't written freely in so long and it feels so, so glorious. Who would've thought that it would take until my resignation to smile without dumbbells tied to each corner of my lips? Guess I really do have a problem leaving what becomes familiar to me, trapped in the confines of safety I can only... Continue Reading →
Living inside of your own head is like,Dipping your feet in a lake of fire while you watch them violently dissolve.An inevitable implosion a Hot-Head cannot prevent,Without a will to move forward instead of dwelling on a past already behind them…But,What is home if I'm not welcomed anywhere I go?The only way is up after... Continue Reading →
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