"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Yes,I often think of suicide,But,Still have the courage to refuse such atrocity.Because,My life was given!It was never mine to take in the first place regardless of how many demons got to me… After all,It's my job to thwart them off of my shoulders.If I don't,I deserve every consequence that looms over my soul.If I coast... Continue Reading →
You can't imagine all the pain I brazenly bear while,Stigmatized as an animal who feeds off of despair.But,What others refuse to see?Is how I'm just a man growing sick and tired of apologies!Others never care to spare… So,I've isolated.Got to make sure to stay away from what would not embrace me while left forsaken.By family... Continue Reading →
Sober thoughts are so exciting!Like,Being able to smile without feeling like a criminal on the loose.Like,A trip to Cold Stone just because I can with nothing inside of my ailing heart to lose… Often I scream for an abundance of freedom my inner child keeps demanding for good reason!Yet,Fear of a different life shrouds my... Continue Reading →
Been at the library for the past couple of days,As it gives me a sigh of relief.A sigh of relief from sitting on my bedroom seat,Watching what an algorithm thinks I'm interested in without ever asking me… Just a few years ago,I was standing on my own two feet,On as many stages I can possibly... Continue Reading →
Blank…Maybe,That's why it's been hard to put ink onto paper.Nothing in my mind.Just,Thoughts floating through my head while I close my eyes and,Feel the chaos it brings.Left asking myself,What am I here for?To,Endure pain until I'm finally able to dream again?Dream a life where I can bare the sting of wounds I've inflicted on myself…Tell... Continue Reading →
An abundance of power found in my departure from a home I was never part of.Apart from having no one by my side,I've never really been alone the more I looked up as a means of catharsis.Been down for quite a while now,Bar none,But,I rose from the inner depths of a Hell only mutilated souls... Continue Reading →
She speaks in Poetry,Coercing me to smile often…A grin I've left in a coffin,While I rest,Every night,Hoping God would defrost this…Ice block he placed exactly where my heart is… Numb to Emotion,I've been,As I lie in another's deceit.But,She makes me feel again,When she recommends,My hands to wrap around her waist and release,All the tension that's... Continue Reading →
Too late! What does that mean, really? In a life where we have the ability to change regardless of the odds, is it ever really too late to climb back up from the fate of damnation? The only judicious reasoning I can muster for anyone's opportunity at redemption is, death. What can one possibly do... Continue Reading →
"Why does it have to be me?" The question I ask when I walk down a street,Where my feet never feel welcomed.A beast in the eyes of each person I pass while I smile with a piece of me broken.And,Only I know what rattles inside of a mind I pray for,For the moment… No one... Continue Reading →
Lost.Stuck inside the confines of a mind gone dark.How do I break through?Is the question I repeat in hopes an answer would spark.Lighting fires under my belly rather than enduring a combustion burning my dreams away,As I inhale another breath and keep calm.Opening my palm!To receive blessings I've rejected for way too long.All for a... Continue Reading →
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