"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Its funny how the world makes you say peace,Dueces!While Jesus brings his hands together for whomever feels,Depressed and useless.At the end of it all,Why should I believe what anyone else has to say,When His word has been the truest?Others just push me away while,He listens well enough to tell me what the truth is!As it... Continue Reading →
Nobody loves me,But,I'm okay with knowing that.Because,God seems present in my life while gifting me a pen and pad.A pen and pad I could talk to any time I feel sad.A place where I could be honest.A place where I can admit how I want to die and get off this,Earth that doesn't feel like... Continue Reading →
Struggling with our sense of belonging is quite common.I mean,All of us desire family,A group to be apart of without ever going bitter,Rotten.But,Sometimes?The apple falls far from a tree left forgotten.Not a single pot of water poured into the ground,But,A pot of marijuana smoked while surrounded by the sounds,Of your dreams…Crumbling along each step taken... Continue Reading →
No one likes to feel like they're in a therapy session.You want another to listen with open ears and simply understand the message,Being told against your own will telling you to bottle it inside until it explodes in your chest and,Pierces through your guard once thought to be unbreakable regardless of impact from any weapon... Continue Reading →
At this point,I'm beginning to question my own depression.My addiction.Because,I'm still sad either way.Whether or not I'm high or sober,I still feel empty while I sit down in Limbo.Wondering if I'll ever make it out… Maybe,I'm not necessarily full of sorrow because of my disappointing decision to roll another joint while my opportunities wither away.Maybe,It's... Continue Reading →
Rest.It slips away from your mind when you're addicted while lonely and stressed.No longer is it in your grasp until you let go of what burns in your soul to no end.Crisped insidiously by a joint lit by the pain in my chest!But,It's time for a new story to be authored while repenting for each... Continue Reading →
Had to take a minute to sit down and reflect on my state of mind hoping I can get to know myself a little bit more. Because, as much as I love to write my heart away, my palms itch for some difference. Something to take my eyes away from memories I'm sick of replaying... Continue Reading →
Cheering myself up is a habit I haven’t practiced until now.Just,Sitting down,Taking in the deepest breath and being obsessed with what truly makes me happy.Whether it’s poetry begging to be spewed out from the inner depths of my gleaming soul,Or,Watching Dragon Ball Z even if I am “adult-years old”,Guilt seemed to have always shoot up... Continue Reading →
Cheering myself up is a habit I haven’t practiced until now.Just,Sitting down,Taking in the deepest breath and being obsessed with what truly makes me happy.Whether it’s poetry begging to be spewed out from the inner depths of my gleaming soul,Or,Watching Dragon Ball Z even if I am “adult-years old”,Guilt seemed to have always shoot up... Continue Reading →
Who knows why I’m typing all of these letters down this exact moment. All that’s known by a heart caved in by deceit and endless hits of weed smoke is, that it doesn’t want to die, even if it seems to reach a flatline closer as the days pass by… And, Goku along with poetry... Continue Reading →
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