"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
His eyes drown in the smile Her face is drenched by.Swimming from corner to corner,Splashing within each reason He fell in love with what lays inside of Her corneas,Wishing He is who she'd choose to protect her vision of a future filled with undying beauty… A dreamer He is!But,There's is no escape from the frog... Continue Reading →
"Get up!"My mind yells yet,Can't find the motivation to rise fast enough.I don't know why,Nor do I care to find out.I'm exhausted from trying to find a reason to move forward.I just…Want to jump to my feet,And,Wash my face without contemplating why I'm even awake,Asking myself If I'll ever be happy again or,If I'll ever... Continue Reading →
What is the point of me still being alive when I hold no connection to any living thing?Literally.All I do is wake up.Contemplate my vices,How I should quit them as I proceed to clean my face and room for my daily sit down with weed in one hand and,A heart full of pain regardless of... Continue Reading →
Valiant efforts are laid to waste,Nowadays,When I try to smile without forcing myself to.Sorrow tends to drown out my laughter any time I humor myself with a different hue.I can't seem to think of another color,Besides red,To use on a canvas where I picture myself dead…A truth I've tried to avoid regardless of any joy... Continue Reading →
You were right when you urged me to leave them behind.I couldn't see why I should've put them to the side,Until they've tried to control and order me around like,A slave seen as scraps they could've thrown away at any point in time,Only using me as temporary aid for any problem in their life as... Continue Reading →
Its funny how the world makes you say peace,Dueces!While Jesus brings his hands together for whomever feels,Depressed and useless.At the end of it all,Why should I believe what anyone else has to say,When His word has been the truest?Others just push me away while,He listens well enough to tell me what the truth is!As it... Continue Reading →
Nobody loves me,But,I'm okay with knowing that.Because,God seems present in my life while gifting me a pen and pad.A pen and pad I could talk to any time I feel sad.A place where I could be honest.A place where I can admit how I want to die and get off this,Earth that doesn't feel like... Continue Reading →
Struggling with our sense of belonging is quite common.I mean,All of us desire family,A group to be apart of without ever going bitter,Rotten.But,Sometimes?The apple falls far from a tree left forgotten.Not a single pot of water poured into the ground,But,A pot of marijuana smoked while surrounded by the sounds,Of your dreams…Crumbling along each step taken... Continue Reading →
No one likes to feel like they're in a therapy session.You want another to listen with open ears and simply understand the message,Being told against your own will telling you to bottle it inside until it explodes in your chest and,Pierces through your guard once thought to be unbreakable regardless of impact from any weapon... Continue Reading →
At this point,I'm beginning to question my own depression.My addiction.Because,I'm still sad either way.Whether or not I'm high or sober,I still feel empty while I sit down in Limbo.Wondering if I'll ever make it out… Maybe,I'm not necessarily full of sorrow because of my disappointing decision to roll another joint while my opportunities wither away.Maybe,It's... Continue Reading →
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