"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Ties,Ties,Ties!They just don't suit me right.Feels more like,A noose choking to death,The kind of tranquil man I yearn to become in a world ran by financial success and duress,And…A suit is not part of who I am,Nor ever will it be for as long as I hold a journal and a pen… It's the only... Continue Reading →
At this point,I'm beginning to question my own depression.My addiction.Because,I'm still sad either way.Whether or not I'm high or sober,I still feel empty while I sit down in Limbo.Wondering if I'll ever make it out… Maybe,I'm not necessarily full of sorrow because of my disappointing decision to roll another joint while my opportunities wither away.Maybe,It's... Continue Reading →
Honestly,Writing’s been quite different ever since I began my journey to sobriety.A journey where I don’t half-ass it like I’ve been for the past couple of years.Smoking my troubles away,As soon as I feel any kind of pain,While repeating to myself,“Today will be the day!”Yet,Can’t find the courage to ever let Mary Jane go.Even if... Continue Reading →
Before you get up and start your day, Getting ready to clock in for work and get paid, Just to smile after being ridiculed for all the pain you may be feeling, Try not to forget how memories don't have to make you cry... Any time a thought wrenches your gut, Think about the grin... Continue Reading →
I don't want to want to think. Worry. Stress. But, how's it possible to do so with so much pressure life mounts on your shoulders? When will I meet the changed man I attempt to materialize right in front of my very own eyes each second passing by? That man, patient when reaching for his... Continue Reading →
Waking up, First thing, Bright and early? It looks like it will surely be a beautiful day! Sitting next to my window, Smoking on endo while I pray. Sipping on some tea, Alleviating me of my pain... Why can't it Be, This good? Every morning I'm standing, Weak? From this family happily handing me plenty... Continue Reading →
How wonderful it'd be to able to soar through the sky, One arm stretched out with hands coiled into fists while punching straight through a cloud or two. Maybe save a damsel in distress while cupid shoots an arrow through both of our lonely hearts. How about teleporting from this cold city, To the dunes... Continue Reading →
I often ask, How do we know if what we do is right. Is it that moment of hysteria when you impale that knife, In the spine of another? Or, That sigh of relief when you decide to be the bigger person, Rather than fighting with your brothers just to kill each other?... But, What... Continue Reading →
Hot flashes consume my entire being, Once the last drop of Budweiser, 40oz, Flies down to my lower bowels. Yet, Another blunt is rolled. Lit by thoughts of freedom from this Jail Cell I housed myself in... Although nauseated. The thought of Earth and how luscious its Roses are have confiscated, That fear of Pain... Continue Reading →
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