"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Why is this rotten feeling inside of me whenever I'm not clouded by weed smoke?Why can't I just smile and enjoy the day without a teardrop or two drowning that possibility away?Most call it anxiety,But,Maybe it's my refusal to be myself in world that stopped inspiring me,The day my ex left me in dumpster of... Continue Reading →
Sunnier days have been looming ahead as I sit down and pour out my anxiety on to a notepad (unfortunately digital as I prefer the real thing, but too lazy I am today). I've been able to smile more regardless of any tumultuous situation. After trying to speed through life in my past days, knowing... Continue Reading →
Love.Anytime I think of it,Her puffy cheeks clutter my mind.The only set I would love to punch and kiss just,One more time.But,I ruined my chances by not being patient.By choosing Mary Jane and,Other selfish desires I replaced her with…God gave me what I wanted!Yet,Became blinded by the weed smoke that still haunts me today.If only... Continue Reading →
Sorry…But,Nowadays,All I can find myself saying is,How difficult I've made my own life by giving up my time to,The demons in my mind who frolic where my eyes can't see…The,Only company I've had for the last 5 years while I starve to death!For,Somebody's love… Still,Sorry that,I am not sorry for.My woeful rhythms.Flows of sound led... Continue Reading →
Sometimes,All a person wants is to be acknowledged.With love and open arms from someone they've known for the longest.But,Life seems to go on without a single thought for me.Not a single person in my life that calls me to say,"Hi!How are you?Just to see how I am doing.Not a single hug to keep me from... Continue Reading →
Hey Universe! I just wanted to give a quick update as well as some love for those who enjoy reading my work :). My apologies for not being so consistent for the past several months! I've been battling my own set of depression along with my addiction to cannabis in which I've had to turn... Continue Reading →
As a single man without anyone by your side,You're pretty much fucked.No one cares for your pain as you're labeled another bust.When you're laid out on the ground from every hit you've taken,You're just a floor matt others walk over while they hide their faces.Too ashamed to see a soul they've hurt by never giving... Continue Reading →
What is life anymore?Is it a course of torment for the souls who mourn rest for most of their weary days?Or,Is there something at the end of our tunnels,Virtually endless,As we crawl on bleeding knees while laughed at for,Cringing in pain...Too hard to tell nowadays...
Enjoying anything in life is harder than it seems when,All you feel is dejection.Dejection others turn a blind eye toward regardless of affection they may have for you.How do I smile when watching a movie?How do I laugh at a joke I find funny without forcing it?How do I even eat food and feel satisfied... Continue Reading →
Been a while since I've sat down,Ate some food and thought about my life without a screen in my face to help me through my meal.But,What other choice do I have?Can't force anyone to love you.Can't force anyone to make sure you are okay.Can't force anyone to smile towards your face instead of laughter over... Continue Reading →
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