"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
So.For the last 8 years of my life,I haven't heard many say "Happy Birthday,"Not a single "Happy New Years,"Haven't gotten a single phone call.Not a single message trying to check if I've been holding on,Strong… I've just…Been a struggling soul for others to be entertained by while littered,By promises I was convinced were sweet,Yet,Went bitter.How... Continue Reading →
"Family, what is it good for?" Is what I find myself asking after being forced to wake up by sounds of death and depression produced by the void of my youngest relative's heart made of stone with malic acid for tears. For starters, disappointed I am in myself for still living under the roof of... Continue Reading →
Stalk me as much as you feel necessary.Waste as much time as possible living a life so sedentary.All you do is sit and watch my moves with a pocket filled with copper tunes,Jingles only addicts are familiar with while you pop a few,Pills if you don't feel like "crushing" your dreams at the moment.A vampire... Continue Reading →
Only two more days,And…I feel as if I'm holding on for dear life.Startled,Of all things,But…I only have one goal in sight… Sobriety.So elusive,Yet,So close to me everywhere I go as long as I choose to,Lose it.Dispose of it instead of using it,For managing a Molotov of emotions by setting on fire with every flick of... Continue Reading →
Words have been hard to find lately.I've been angry,With no one to hug while armed with a joint baking,In the middle of a palm I'm trying my best to take back control of before,I need anymore saving than I already do.A palm that once did everything I commanded it without question!But,Now it won't listen unless... Continue Reading →
Sometimes,All I can do is sit down and stare into space with a face more blank than a canvas painters are afraid to touch.Feel pinned against a wall with a dagger as big as my list of mistakes throughout the last three years of my pathetic existence.Seemingly possessed by a vengeful spirit too exhausted to... Continue Reading →
Stars twinkle emphatically the darker it gets,Glowing mightily in response to your signals of distress.Their sounds of silence speak louder than thoughts disturbed by past trauma I still cry over!But…My cheeks still refuse to grin in light of Breath,Flowing through my body as I'm knocked to ground,Face down,While cushioned by a chest I believed to... Continue Reading →
Struggling with our sense of belonging is quite common.I mean,All of us desire family,A group to be apart of without ever going bitter,Rotten.But,Sometimes?The apple falls far from a tree left forgotten.Not a single pot of water poured into the ground,But,A pot of marijuana smoked while surrounded by the sounds,Of your dreams…Crumbling along each step taken... Continue Reading →
What is this feeling rotting inside each pit of my mangled soul,Where hot lava flows,Dropping all along a set of bones,Refusing to erode?… I don't think I'll ever know.Because,It flows in different currents,And.It's been reoccurring,During phases distinct from each other in a life I haven't been sure of,For the last several years… A guaranteed misery!Pondering... Continue Reading →
Lately,It seems as if I can only write about the raging despair I feel coursing all throughout my entire body at maximum speeds I never thought were possible.After all,It's apparent how I've been a prodigal son in the eyes of guardians who defend my fall from grace as I climb my way back up to... Continue Reading →
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