"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Trying to get it back no matter the obstacle.Tired of walking with a mind where thoughts are prodigal.Nowadays,I'd rather crawl to places where all views are tropical.So,It's time to get topical,Kicking habits harder than a wall where I've doxed a few… Heads I wouldn't mind crushing in real time,Instead of drawing vivid images of their... Continue Reading →
The same, the same, the same, the same, the same! That's just how it's been for the past few weeks and it's driving me insane. I may have reached two months without smoking marijuana, but something is still missing. A part of myself still seems to be AWOL without ever wanting to come back… All... Continue Reading →
An escape is what I've needed.Not another joint full of weed leading,To a high so egregious,As I would rather lay low and carry on defeating!Every nagging thought keeping me away from what I truly love… Poetry,A pen and pad along side a good reason.To never give up on myself instead of listening to demons hoping... Continue Reading →
Twenty days without smoking Mary Jane. What an accomplishment for a man like me who couldn't stop smoking until a tragedy happened. But, at this point, I'm just confused. So, so confused as to how I'm supposed to be living my life. Friends? I would love some. Family? I already have, but I feel like... Continue Reading →
Who cares about anyone's opinion?I'm more worried about making good women smile in a world full of raging idiots,As my way of saying sorry for once being one myself…So,You can joyfully kick rocks over to your own grave when criticizing me.I've made mistakes,But,I've owned up to them!Entirely.Winded,But,Well worth the effort to release this madness stuck... Continue Reading →
Its funny how the world makes you say peace,Dueces!While Jesus brings his hands together for whomever feels,Depressed and useless.At the end of it all,Why should I believe what anyone else has to say,When His word has been the truest?Others just push me away while,He listens well enough to tell me what the truth is!As it... Continue Reading →
Good Mornings are foreign to me,As I rather have a good day instead of continously mourning,What I could've been.Because,God placed me here for a reason I shouldn't miss,As I hit another joint knowing every glaring risk.I guess,It's the effect of a near-death moment,Where you're all alone in,A glass house shattering on top of you.Shards of... Continue Reading →
This is probably my,Toughest entry yet.The hardest piece I've ever chosen to write for the very reason that,I don't really want to wake up to whatever this is any longer.I just,Have no other choice… Haven't had any motivation to write,Let alone move my limbs any further past my bed regardless of how much I hate... Continue Reading →
Silly! Silly I was to think I would be able to abruptly jump back into the saddle of diligently writing every single day. Such an act has been impossible for me due to my immediate decision to focus on smoke as soon as I wake up. But, as much as I choose to buy marijuana... Continue Reading →
There's not much I can really say,Being that I still don't want to live till this day.A feeling I've felt ever since the 5th grade,Going on to middle school where I was nothing!But,An outcast to pick on just to feel entertained.And,It didn't matter if I was home,Or,At school,It was all the same.A target for whomever... Continue Reading →
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