"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Meticulous in thought during moments my mind should be blank.Moments where my hands should be moving faster than a heart beat speeding up from a lack of funds,Gone away in smoke burning blunt after blunt.But,There's just so much pressure on my shoulders.Feels like the weight of everything I must do is crushing me as I... Continue Reading →
Addiction.A Monster residing in its own class.A mind full of dualistic principles.Where It will crown itself king for municipal control for boatloads of cold,Hard,Cash… Anything!It will do around the city for another hit of Lies in your hand…It'll converse and kick it with you!With a mouth full of tricks convincing you of starry nights you... Continue Reading →
Repentance.Allowing God to rip every chain off of my bruised ankles and wrists.Turning back from every demon who thought they could frolic in my mind for all of eternity.Saying no to every craving leading me to my unfortunate demise.Grabbing the hand of your inner child and pulling him back up from an edge before he... Continue Reading →
Regrets?I have none.All I am is a human who's mad enough!To throw my lighter against a pavement stepped on by so many others wearing shoes soaked in butane while having nothing,To lose.And,I could've been a part of that group….Of arsonists as my soul was often set ablaze by what was never true…Mary Jane along side... Continue Reading →
Sober thoughts are so exciting!Like,Being able to smile without feeling like a criminal on the loose.Like,A trip to Cold Stone just because I can with nothing inside of my ailing heart to lose… Often I scream for an abundance of freedom my inner child keeps demanding for good reason!Yet,Fear of a different life shrouds my... Continue Reading →
Sick…Of so many things!But,Mostly how we show each other love in the strangest of ways.Like,Our greetings on most days.Some start by saying,"Hey!How's everything?Hopefully you're doing swell!"Ending it there without a restraint even if they notice you aren't doing too well.You might even get a pat on the back,Maybe one on your ass,And!A big ole' middle... Continue Reading →
Been at the library for the past couple of days,As it gives me a sigh of relief.A sigh of relief from sitting on my bedroom seat,Watching what an algorithm thinks I'm interested in without ever asking me… Just a few years ago,I was standing on my own two feet,On as many stages I can possibly... Continue Reading →
Recapping everything that happened the night before is typically a bad move,Unless you yearn to lie within a deathbed God created for you!For wearing too many different hats fitting the man you think you already are while,Hiding the truth… Might as well be yourself,In a world trapped in a shell,Cracking underneath pressure it already felt... Continue Reading →
Haven't been good in what feels like,An aeon my inner child became too tired to keep on counting.Sick of waking up first thing in the morning doubting what I,Haven't yet attempted.Putting my phone aside to meditate after much needed bed rest.Breathing when I'm feeling anxious about when I need to do the next best thing,And... Continue Reading →
Florescent scents from our carousing days,Pervade my nose when thinking of a Rose I've plucked and,Let die.A Rose my heart held as a symbol of love,Now dead because of faith she couldn't see when looking into my watery eyes… And,It took a while to grow past the pain of Her loss,As my sunshine dimmed the... Continue Reading →
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