"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
This very moment,I prefer to die. And,I don’t know why. Just,So much Anger overflowing the bottle I’ve kept shut inside I,Can’t seem to notice the brighter side.So,I smoke.Until the smoke becomes a canvas I can paint my dreams on.Even if it all disappears,Eventually.Inevitably… *Side Note* Hopefully everyone reading this right now is feeling good, doing... Continue Reading →
Numb,Out of touch with my inner self…Crushed,Over love lost in my wishing well… Well,I wish I was above waters,'Cause I'm drowning in my tears,Alone,While I fear,That I'll relapse and lower gears,On a road that took so long to get to… I'm here,Slashed in this battle verse words.Penned to rise from the curb.But,I'm trapped underneath doubt.What... Continue Reading →
Depression is,Waking up at 5 in the morning while staring at your cell phone screen just.Confused.Depression is,Having a moment of laughter,Immediately stopping after taking notice because you feel like you,Don't deserve it.Depression is,Feeling like you're drowning above sea level while inhaling your breath deeper than the love you have for your current self.Depression is just,Virtually... Continue Reading →
Jane often disappears after our brief interactions.And,Anytime we do,It always hits the fan while,Blowing up in smoke… What seems like a break from absorbing her hits,Is more like an instance of burning a bridge.The more that I’m given what numbs my soul,The more I’m distant from flames that wither when you,Let go… I see poison... Continue Reading →
Pondering one question,And,One question only.Is it a prerequisite to laboriously act as a rebel without a cause for another’s attention?I only ask because,Most seem to alleviate their feelings of neglect with,A jab across the chin of who they wish were part of their lives to begin with…And,My chin can’t quite take it anymore.Yet,Not for the... Continue Reading →
Dear Universe, Can a monster ever be cured of what feels like an everlasting disease? The kind of disease most run towards when held against their will. You know, Anger... I believe so. Because, no matter how angry I've been, it dwindles into a sigh the second I get a grip and remind myself how... Continue Reading →
These outbursts, I don't know why I have them. Maybe, If my mind wasn't caught up in past misunderstandings, Or, The reasons why I've been labeled the outcast in, A place, World, Universe, Whatever this is to anyone who's mad enough to find a definitive answer... I want them to stop! But, For some reason... Continue Reading →
A break from insanity is what I feel I need,But,I'm always in a zone of joy anytime I conceive,A line birthed from many growing pains,Cracks in my picture frame,I couldn't put back or,So it seemed... Because,Haven't you been shattered by truth before?If I tell my truths to the other side of my fence,Will the walls... Continue Reading →
Hard to be impressed when you're elevated past the present plane.I'm more so pressed by the nerve of anyone trying to stunt my future growth for their own hit of fame.See,I don't care about anything,Nor,Anybody politicking over politicians when it's our heart that's missing.I only care about the rhythm I am instilling while ascending past... Continue Reading →
Gratitude,For this second chance in life God allowed me to receive,Even if my wounds are still bleeding,Profusely.Why?Because,It is all in our minds,The Pain we cry!Over…I just couldn’t see that truth till I began to move forward,And,Love myself enough to,Get sober… Thank you,God!
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