"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Got to stay cool…Got to stay calm…Nowadays,When I'm on the move,I try to sing a different song.A different tune my head can bop along to.Lost…I have been!But,If I was being honest?It isn't so bad if you keep your mind off it!You know…Everything you dwell about from the top,Of the morning,Even if your inner child's yelling,"Stop... Continue Reading →
Attempted to die today,But,Failed miserably.And,It's not because people have been sick of me.It's not because my family hates me,I hate them equally.It's because,I'm tired of reaching up to God while crying for his presence hysterically.Just…Another day where I feel like the Lord wants nothing to do with my life,While I sit back,Break my sobriety with... Continue Reading →
"Family, what is it good for?" Is what I find myself asking after being forced to wake up by sounds of death and depression produced by the void of my youngest relative's heart made of stone with malic acid for tears. For starters, disappointed I am in myself for still living under the roof of... Continue Reading →
Only two more days,And…I feel as if I'm holding on for dear life.Startled,Of all things,But…I only have one goal in sight… Sobriety.So elusive,Yet,So close to me everywhere I go as long as I choose to,Lose it.Dispose of it instead of using it,For managing a Molotov of emotions by setting on fire with every flick of... Continue Reading →
Words have been hard to find lately.I've been angry,With no one to hug while armed with a joint baking,In the middle of a palm I'm trying my best to take back control of before,I need anymore saving than I already do.A palm that once did everything I commanded it without question!But,Now it won't listen unless... Continue Reading →
The Void.A place where no man nor woman full of joy would dare dwell in.A lifeless vacuum imbibing everything uplifting a smile unseen in Darkness.An eternal damnation where those who have given up drown in,Their only place of contentment…It's…It's nothing but a place full of horrors our human eyes cannot fathom without,A faith in Light... Continue Reading →
Health is an oddity in my lonely life.Although I wake with energy surging through my finger tips,My legs are too fatigued to walk toward boxes of journals full of what could be the difference,In a life I don't feel is worth living anymore… Rather,What's left of me should be given to a soul who needs... Continue Reading →
Stars twinkle emphatically the darker it gets,Glowing mightily in response to your signals of distress.Their sounds of silence speak louder than thoughts disturbed by past trauma I still cry over!But…My cheeks still refuse to grin in light of Breath,Flowing through my body as I'm knocked to ground,Face down,While cushioned by a chest I believed to... Continue Reading →
Struggling with our sense of belonging is quite common.I mean,All of us desire family,A group to be apart of without ever going bitter,Rotten.But,Sometimes?The apple falls far from a tree left forgotten.Not a single pot of water poured into the ground,But,A pot of marijuana smoked while surrounded by the sounds,Of your dreams…Crumbling along each step taken... Continue Reading →
No one ever knows which day is their last.For some of us,It is an attachment similar to a bungee jump beneath a bridge.Instead of losing yourself inside of shallow waters poured by the outcries of Anger you haven't dealt with,That rope of smoke grabs you just in time to pull you back onto the ledge,Until,You... Continue Reading →
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