"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
A steak fry is still a fry.A steak nugget is still a piece of steak.Never will it matter how they're both dressed on a plate,Cracked and soon to break.From it's weight.More than your aching stomach's meant to handle,While you laugh at the possibility of blacking out and,Falling on your face.Stuff your mouth all you want,Not... Continue Reading →
Ties,Ties,Ties!They just don't suit me right.Feels more like,A noose choking to death,The kind of tranquil man I yearn to become in a world ran by financial success and duress,And…A suit is not part of who I am,Nor ever will it be for as long as I hold a journal and a pen… It's the only... Continue Reading →
So many mistakes.Only one to blame.The man I'm forced to see in the mirror,Every.Single.Day… Will I ever make it out of this hole,Will I ever fully change?From,A frown that feels permanent,To,An everlasting smile on my face? I…Don't know.I hope so,But,There are only a miles ahead hope can ever go towards… Forward!I march on.Regardless of how... Continue Reading →
"I don't love you!""I don't love you!!" She made sure to tell me twice.A fact I was aware of by the simple look in her hollowed eyes.But,Instead of being disappointed I,Just walked away and cried over my exhaustion.My exhaustion of putting up with abuse I could've certainly avoided by getting lost in,Empty pages rather than... Continue Reading →
Delusions of grandeur is something I promise myself to never fall back into regardless of where my life stands at any period in time. It's something I hope never poisons the heart of anyone with intentions to love others around them even when it stings most. Because, with how much darkness every ounce of delusion... Continue Reading →
Twenty days without smoking Mary Jane. What an accomplishment for a man like me who couldn't stop smoking until a tragedy happened. But, at this point, I'm just confused. So, so confused as to how I'm supposed to be living my life. Friends? I would love some. Family? I already have, but I feel like... Continue Reading →
An apology is not worthy enough to explain how bad I feel… So many promises were made knowing I would most likely not be able to honor them at all. Most of my time has been spent stressing, yelling about the audacities of life we all have to deal with when push comes to shove.... Continue Reading →
Maybe,My palms are hesitant to write every single day because,I fear my true feelings will keep driving others away like they've already done.So,Each time I sit up trying to encourage myself to write a poem,I just,Lay broken.Soaking my spirit in tears from not doing what my heart truly wants to do.And that's just…Sitting in silence.With... Continue Reading →
What got me through a day of work?The possibility of killing myself after clocking out.Honestly,My only source of motivation as I'm nodding out every few seconds since it's taking everything I got in me!To…End the night,Without blood splatter in sight,Regardless of how desperate I am to,Die… What?Would you rather read the words of a liar... Continue Reading →
Yes,I often think of suicide,But,Still have the courage to refuse such atrocity.Because,My life was given!It was never mine to take in the first place regardless of how many demons got to me… After all,It's my job to thwart them off of my shoulders.If I don't,I deserve every consequence that looms over my soul.If I coast... Continue Reading →
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