On some days,There are no words.Just,A thought you don’t want to have,Along a ball of angst ballooning inside of your chest,Until it pops!And,Takes you down with it,As hope begins deflating slowly,But surely.The one moment your demons find worthy to dance together,Hold hands and celebrate… Yet,Their celebration ends when you decide to shut off their stereo... Continue Reading →
Blank Stare
Sometimes,All I can do is sit down and stare into space with a face more blank than a canvas painters are afraid to touch.Feel pinned against a wall with a dagger as big as my list of mistakes throughout the last three years of my pathetic existence.Seemingly possessed by a vengeful spirit too exhausted to... Continue Reading →
A Monster No One Likes – Freewrite #37
Many days I wake up immediately wondering why I did. Wondering why God reminds me every single time how those delightful thoughts running through my mind during my slumber are just, dreams. But, epiphanies strike just in the nick of time, right before I have an inevitable meltdown only my inner demons can witness.... Continue Reading →
No More Glasshouses
Free.Free is what I feel when I lay distant from a family devoured by their guilt and sorrow.Free!Is what I feel every moment I recite poems,Hoping they become a good omen for another reading to alleviate their worries over the anticipation of Tomorrow.Free!...Is all I can feel as I isolate from what is toxic to... Continue Reading →
Plugged In
Easy,Ain’t it?To tell someone to,“Just do!”Especially,When you haven’t received a single ounce of respect you’ve earned.When depression seeps into your mind first thing in the morning while you thirst,For a smile you can see within a scratched mirror you’ve clawed at ferociously for answers… The disaster it is when a human mind is cursed by... Continue Reading →
Relieved
A relief! To be isolated so much so, That, I can die today, This very moment! And, Not a single soul would know... If anyone wonders how and why I'm so sure of this, Just, Look at my call logs and check the conversations I was having. Ask yourself, "Who did he call and who... Continue Reading →
Concrete Rosez
I just want to yell!Get it all out and escape this hell!I have trapped myself in.Harder to admit no matter how easy it may look,As I’m finally climbing out of the hole I fell into… Because,I miss what a hug from a true friend feels like!I,Just don’t know what to do this very moment I... Continue Reading →
Study Time
Haven’t studied for a single exam.Even if I probably should,Life keeps testing me and,I rather pass those obstacles first.An A sounds great!But,I rather work on waking up without a death wish,While I pounce through the day with a smile on my face…Because,I am all I have.Not a single phone call from a friend within the... Continue Reading →
Numbness
When your legs fall asleep without ever knowing when they’ll wake up?An odd feeling I choose over anger and frustration.At least,I can deal with numbness and be functional.Can’t smile,But,I wish you the best while I keep my distance.My hands gently flow across a page no matter how much they fidget.Because,By the end of it all?I... Continue Reading →
Fear Of Heightz
Fear.A feeling most abhor for as long as they live,Yet,Success is never gained without it.But,What I am afraid of,Is not a man nor women who has made up,A character,More like the pariah we avoid to save the,Bits and pieces left of our sanity!With God’s wrath looming over our sins,I’m scared of what will be taken... Continue Reading →