I must accept it because it's what God wants.I want to be a baller,A player,But,That wasn't God's call.I tried to hang it up!But,God looked at me and said,"You will not fall!"Any longer…
To Rise Again
Bittersweet Candy – Freewrite #42
Waking up everyday knowing that no one will ever just, say Hi, is probably the toughest reality to wake up to. From what I've seen, rich or poor, Loneliness is powerful enough to devour your entire soul, spitting it back out onto concrete where the sun shines the brightest. A beast I've known too well,... Continue Reading →
I Don’t Belong, But I’m Here – Freewrite #41
Sunnier days have been looming ahead as I sit down and pour out my anxiety on to a notepad (unfortunately digital as I prefer the real thing, but too lazy I am today). I've been able to smile more regardless of any tumultuous situation. After trying to speed through life in my past days, knowing... Continue Reading →
Why Me?
"Why does it have to be me?" The question I ask when I walk down a street,Where my feet never feel welcomed.A beast in the eyes of each person I pass while I smile with a piece of me broken.And,Only I know what rattles inside of a mind I pray for,For the moment… No one... Continue Reading →
Ain’t Mad Anymore!
All the noise stopped when I chipped a tooth pulling teeth to bring It to an end.This,Vortex of smoke I've spun inside of for too many years of my life,Chipping away at my flesh!Piece by piece.Making sure the torture is painful and slow.But,Not once do I wince as I endure the sting of Hell.As numb... Continue Reading →
Leaves of Peace
Finally!Finally,Finally.Surrounded by the kind of nature that loves to tell a story.Leaves of paper bound to a spine strong enough to endure what broke mine.Reminders of what life can be like if I just,Walk away from what wants to efface my existence on a planet I've grown weary of.All I wonder is,What's next?While my hands... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 5 – The Final Act
New age lies used to clutter my mind until I,Realized the truth.How most people willingly sugarcoat their bitter hearts with sweet inaccuracies when telling their story,Just to feel good for the moment!As they close their eyes before things become visually gory…I would know,Because,I've done it back when I didn't have a backbone when confronting each... Continue Reading →
Lost In My Mind
Lost.Stuck inside the confines of a mind gone dark.How do I break through?Is the question I repeat in hopes an answer would spark.Lighting fires under my belly rather than enduring a combustion burning my dreams away,As I inhale another breath and keep calm.Opening my palm!To receive blessings I've rejected for way too long.All for a... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 4 – Love Is Just, Love…
I don't even know why I love you!But,I do.Even after 5 years of us breaking up,As I try my best to live in my truths.How I wasn't perfect as a man drowned by his tears on the surface while surrounded by a noose!Or,What most would call family,Suffocating me when reaching out for a piece of... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 2 – Relapse
Another morning waking up doing what I did yesterday.Taking hits enduring all the pain while I circle around till I find a better way.A renegade since day one while I penetrate a state of mind keeping me in my lesser ways.They say it's impossible!They say for me to change is improbable,By being what you've been!But,All... Continue Reading →
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