New age lies used to clutter my mind until I,Realized the truth.How most people willingly sugarcoat their bitter hearts with sweet inaccuracies when telling their story,Just to feel good for the moment!As they close their eyes before things become visually gory…I would know,Because,I've done it back when I didn't have a backbone when confronting each... Continue Reading →
Lost In My Mind
Lost.Stuck inside the confines of a mind gone dark.How do I break through?Is the question I repeat in hopes an answer would spark.Lighting fires under my belly rather than enduring a combustion burning my dreams away,As I inhale another breath and keep calm.Opening my palm!To receive blessings I've rejected for way too long.All for a... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 4 – Love Is Just, Love…
I don't even know why I love you!But,I do.Even after 5 years of us breaking up,As I try my best to live in my truths.How I wasn't perfect as a man drowned by his tears on the surface while surrounded by a noose!Or,What most would call family,Suffocating me when reaching out for a piece of... Continue Reading →
Spilling One’s Gut 2 – Relapse
Another morning waking up doing what I did yesterday.Taking hits enduring all the pain while I circle around till I find a better way.A renegade since day one while I penetrate a state of mind keeping me in my lesser ways.They say it's impossible!They say for me to change is improbable,By being what you've been!But,All... Continue Reading →
Numb
Numb.So numb,Even a sharp mind can't pierce through the feeling.As if I'm in need of sedatives just to close my eyes and continue dreaming.Yet,Regardless of how defeated I may seem within the crying pupils of another,I'm mastering my own principles and fighting through a set of trials God believes I'll surpass,By writing every single poem... Continue Reading →
No Longer Riddled By Choices
Change.It's what I've needed as I lost my two cents in regard to what I truly love.But, there isn't much I can do.My options?Continue forward as if I haven't been crying often or stay behind on every deadline I assign myself to produce a thought in the form of a poem until I, die.Die a... Continue Reading →
Attention!
Attention is a hell of a drug!Especially after grabbing a mic around a crowd so desperate to get drunk and high.And I grew tired of it…Watching others surrounding themselves with 1800 bottles while I try to write a hot line?Has me wired in with!Who I really am,Instead of running away from my truths I once... Continue Reading →
A Sepulchre For Love
Sepulchered within a heart of stone I am.All I'd wish for in the past?Is my memory to be revived inside the mind of a woman who passed me over to the woes of abandonment.Why?So that I can ask her this… "Why'd you leave me without a hand to hold on to?You knew the circumstance I... Continue Reading →
Everything To Lose
I've burnt bridges,Without ever looking back!So that I can drink water from a pond where the small fish swim in.Never better than the next man!Nor have I ever planned to be since I was born by a force,Omniscient,Egging me to crack out of my shell to swallow any pill killing,Everything I thought would incinerate me... Continue Reading →
Miasmata
Their mouths were tainted by miasmata I vow to kill,Miasmata with no ability to sicken my vessel protected by God's Will.How?A question I cannot answer until…I rid myself of my own…Because,Weed smoke still subjugates my train of thought even if it is of a different kind,The kind that Mary Jane provides when you're lonely during... Continue Reading →