"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Yes,I often think of suicide,But,Still have the courage to refuse such atrocity.Because,My life was given!It was never mine to take in the first place regardless of how many demons got to me… After all,It's my job to thwart them off of my shoulders.If I don't,I deserve every consequence that looms over my soul.If I coast... Continue Reading →
You can't imagine all the pain I brazenly bear while,Stigmatized as an animal who feeds off of despair.But,What others refuse to see?Is how I'm just a man growing sick and tired of apologies!Others never care to spare… So,I've isolated.Got to make sure to stay away from what would not embrace me while left forsaken.By family... Continue Reading →
Sober thoughts are so exciting!Like,Being able to smile without feeling like a criminal on the loose.Like,A trip to Cold Stone just because I can with nothing inside of my ailing heart to lose… Often I scream for an abundance of freedom my inner child keeps demanding for good reason!Yet,Fear of a different life shrouds my... Continue Reading →
Family wouldn't make it a point to remind you how no one cares for your existence.Family would never cross lines you've set in sand to thwart off all kinds of maliciousness.Family would sooth your battle scars after every hit and miss,Regardless if you're wrong or right in whatever position you're in.So…Where was mine as my... Continue Reading →
Sick…Of so many things!But,Mostly how we show each other love in the strangest of ways.Like,Our greetings on most days.Some start by saying,"Hey!How's everything?Hopefully you're doing swell!"Ending it there without a restraint even if they notice you aren't doing too well.You might even get a pat on the back,Maybe one on your ass,And!A big ole' middle... Continue Reading →
Been at the library for the past couple of days,As it gives me a sigh of relief.A sigh of relief from sitting on my bedroom seat,Watching what an algorithm thinks I'm interested in without ever asking me… Just a few years ago,I was standing on my own two feet,On as many stages I can possibly... Continue Reading →
Recapping everything that happened the night before is typically a bad move,Unless you yearn to lie within a deathbed God created for you!For wearing too many different hats fitting the man you think you already are while,Hiding the truth… Might as well be yourself,In a world trapped in a shell,Cracking underneath pressure it already felt... Continue Reading →
Haven't been good in what feels like,An aeon my inner child became too tired to keep on counting.Sick of waking up first thing in the morning doubting what I,Haven't yet attempted.Putting my phone aside to meditate after much needed bed rest.Breathing when I'm feeling anxious about when I need to do the next best thing,And... Continue Reading →
"Basura.Pajarito.Worthless.A disgrace,The reason for your desired suicide…" Just a small portion of what you've said to me within the past couple of days.Do I forgive you?Yes!But,You?I must keep distant from before my life is ruined by your bitterness and hate.A word you directed at me with a smile till this day!Without any shame as you... Continue Reading →
Rollercoaster rides are exhilarating for the first few laps.Flowing through a wind tunnel drying every tear dropping over memories from your recent past.But,Every ride is different,As I'm strapped to a rollercoaster seemingly infinite.With so many loops I have to wrap around,I've gotten sick of making laps allowing for another trip into a damnation I refuse... Continue Reading →
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