"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Haven't written freely in so long and it feels so, so glorious. Who would've thought that it would take until my resignation to smile without dumbbells tied to each corner of my lips? Guess I really do have a problem leaving what becomes familiar to me, trapped in the confines of safety I can only... Continue Reading →
I guess I don't feel embarrassment because,I've done what I've done as a means of survival.Sure,I can definitely apologize to many others I've hurt,But,That's not possible when you're not given the opportunity to do so… So,What's left?What are you supposed to do to atone for that?Am I supposed to feel sorry for myself and inflict... Continue Reading →
No one likes to feel like they're in a therapy session.You want another to listen with open ears and simply understand the message,Being told against your own will telling you to bottle it inside until it explodes in your chest and,Pierces through your guard once thought to be unbreakable regardless of impact from any weapon... Continue Reading →
At this point,I'm beginning to question my own depression.My addiction.Because,I'm still sad either way.Whether or not I'm high or sober,I still feel empty while I sit down in Limbo.Wondering if I'll ever make it out… Maybe,I'm not necessarily full of sorrow because of my disappointing decision to roll another joint while my opportunities wither away.Maybe,It's... Continue Reading →
At long last…I went back home!Sooner than I thought,And,I'm already aching to go back before I lose control… Of a mind tied in a slipknot.Of a vision fighting against wind blowing debris within it,As I try to pick my eyes every few seconds even if they crust over with rocky memories flashing by… Whether it... Continue Reading →
Satan lurks within the shadows of your sins,Smirking at every trip & fall he'll inevitably witness!Regardless,Of your fear to be noticed.He's a soldier who's out to cause major pain to those who wane away from the God's word over gold and,Other illusions fading as we're laid within a grave dug by our own vices… It's... Continue Reading →
Poetry comes back into my life, full circle, every time I'm squared by trials and tribulations I so desperately need to conquer. Regardless of two shins bruised by a maddening search for peace and tranquility through a field of burning coal, I anticipate the relief I'll feel as soon as I take that first step... Continue Reading →
Squared up against a circle of people who I can only move forward from. Controlling my emotions are a must as I pray that my life doesn't spiral into a tornado of bitterness and hate without a single ounce of purpose to fill the void inside of my heart. Yet, even if I've acted more... Continue Reading →
Blank…Maybe,That's why it's been hard to put ink onto paper.Nothing in my mind.Just,Thoughts floating through my head while I close my eyes and,Feel the chaos it brings.Left asking myself,What am I here for?To,Endure pain until I'm finally able to dream again?Dream a life where I can bare the sting of wounds I've inflicted on myself…Tell... Continue Reading →
Blood streams down the inside of these eyelids,Coated with soiled tissue paper,Ripped clothing and a half chicken rowing down the reddened sea of thought,Picturing every red light down the street bringing these feet to a stop,Reminding me of where I first began at the shore of this garbage-ridden ocean... Red,The color that triggers the bull,The... Continue Reading →
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