"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
To be honest,I'm not sorry that I'm not sorry.Perfect I never was,But,A flawed human being like everybody else is.As selfless as I've been,I can be selfish.Matter of fact,I must be!After every ounce of pain I've dealt with,I must seize!Any care I had left for what people think of me.So,Are you,The reader,Ready for truths I was... Continue Reading →
There's not much I can really say,Being that I still don't want to live till this day.A feeling I've felt ever since the 5th grade,Going on to middle school where I was nothing!But,An outcast to pick on just to feel entertained.And,It didn't matter if I was home,Or,At school,It was all the same.A target for whomever... Continue Reading →
Maybe,My palms are hesitant to write every single day because,I fear my true feelings will keep driving others away like they've already done.So,Each time I sit up trying to encourage myself to write a poem,I just,Lay broken.Soaking my spirit in tears from not doing what my heart truly wants to do.And that's just…Sitting in silence.With... Continue Reading →
Dying isn't easy because,You have to remain silent within a grave.Gravel?The blindfold from sun rays revealing a hideous face,Worn to the point of no return while gazing into limbo.From a window fogging up by blunts of endo as I get low…Like,The window next to me that's been closed…But I,Understand how it's my consequence for snooping... Continue Reading →
Smoke consumes his entire image.Nothing to see,But,What others place on a canvas I'm flicking,Paint behind what they believe to be the back of a life going backwards by the minute!No sweat… When it all fades as I turn around,The truth will be endowed and expose every lie left behind a pen,I kept busy swaying back... Continue Reading →
So.For the last 8 years of my life,I haven't heard many say "Happy Birthday,"Not a single "Happy New Years,"Haven't gotten a single phone call.Not a single message trying to check if I've been holding on,Strong… I've just…Been a struggling soul for others to be entertained by while littered,By promises I was convinced were sweet,Yet,Went bitter.How... Continue Reading →
Attempted to die today,But,Failed miserably.And,It's not because people have been sick of me.It's not because my family hates me,I hate them equally.It's because,I'm tired of reaching up to God while crying for his presence hysterically.Just…Another day where I feel like the Lord wants nothing to do with my life,While I sit back,Break my sobriety with... Continue Reading →
Struggling with our sense of belonging is quite common.I mean,All of us desire family,A group to be apart of without ever going bitter,Rotten.But,Sometimes?The apple falls far from a tree left forgotten.Not a single pot of water poured into the ground,But,A pot of marijuana smoked while surrounded by the sounds,Of your dreams…Crumbling along each step taken... Continue Reading →
Paranoia isn't a symptom for me,But,An enemy lurking within shadows I conjure on concrete shattered by,Their darkness.Farfetched it is not when I stomp as I walk without rhyme or reason.After all,I'm marked as a menace in plots set as my prompt for my loss of life to rise like a soaring Phoenix… Perseverance.A charm despised... Continue Reading →
No one ever knows which day is their last.For some of us,It is an attachment similar to a bungee jump beneath a bridge.Instead of losing yourself inside of shallow waters poured by the outcries of Anger you haven't dealt with,That rope of smoke grabs you just in time to pull you back onto the ledge,Until,You... Continue Reading →
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