On most nights,I don't believe I will ever be loved,Again.Difficult it is to think as I live my life through a journal and a pen.It's a hard-knock life I don't regret.After all,It's the only thing I know how to do while I flow from a chest,Inflated by hope while exhaling my sins… I'm not perfect.Like... Continue Reading →
Faith In Who Reigns As King Forever – Day 39, Never Give Up On Your Dreamz
Blood.Water.Neither is more important then thy father,Even if you don't believe in His existence.It's not a matter of opinion,With enough evidence surrounding us in a world getting darker by the second… Don't know about you,But,I find myself alone in the flesh.Canopied by a storm of lies anytime I try to sleep on a bed.Soaked by... Continue Reading →
The Ascension Of Beasts – Day 38, Never Give Up On Your Dreamz
Ascendance.A rise to power,Fame,Is what a lost soul like yours seems to crave… Repentance.A change from who you've been,Is a thought most seem to think of with,Disdain… But,Inevitable it is,Isn't it?Our need to turn the other way?From sin.An otherworldly impressment of fear amongst individuals who seek a manufactured spotlight… Must you grab hold of everyone's... Continue Reading →
I Just Think Differently – Day 2
There's not much I can really say,Being that I still don't want to live till this day.A feeling I've felt ever since the 5th grade,Going on to middle school where I was nothing!But,An outcast to pick on just to feel entertained.And,It didn't matter if I was home,Or,At school,It was all the same.A target for whomever... Continue Reading →
Binging On The Thought Of Death
What got me through a day of work?The possibility of killing myself after clocking out.Honestly,My only source of motivation as I'm nodding out every few seconds since it's taking everything I got in me!To…End the night,Without blood splatter in sight,Regardless of how desperate I am to,Die… What?Would you rather read the words of a liar... Continue Reading →
Incase… – Freewrite #49
Incase… Just in case this is the last opportunity I'll ever get to flush out a soul dirtied with bad memories I feel forced to remember above all else from the first second of each morning I don't want to wake. And, I get it. I'm blessed. To still have my family around. To still... Continue Reading →
My Little, Big Petri Dish
Blood, water, and bacteria amongst many other elements you can think of, we're made up of it. Doesn't matter how you slice and place it within a petri dish we're forced to call Earth, Home, however you want to address this ball of dirt we just happen to be on. And, as much attention I... Continue Reading →
Blind Rage
Episodes of rage take over when sober from love.Drunk by the thought of her for so long,But,It's time to show a different me.A different flow of rhythm where I only act up on a stage for the world to see.No fear while I drop bombs from a palm deterring naysayers from my life,Praying everyone survives... Continue Reading →
Echoing Joy
Although I feel empty,The crying winds of my ailing soul cool down my blood,Preventing from boiling over.Sure,Times are tough as I get through it without the human touch,But,Why not lift myself off of an edge while I still can?Before it's too late...With enough strength coursing through my body,I realize that I don't have to choose... Continue Reading →
Will I Survive? 1.
Distant even if I don’t want to be. But, as much as I long for someone’s touch, I’ve had to keep far away from everything. People, poetry, sports, work to some degree. Everything. I’ve had to clear my mind of all the lies I’m told each time I bother reaching out for any kind of... Continue Reading →