"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
Words have been hard to find lately.I've been angry,With no one to hug while armed with a joint baking,In the middle of a palm I'm trying my best to take back control of before,I need anymore saving than I already do.A palm that once did everything I commanded it without question!But,Now it won't listen unless... Continue Reading →
Sometimes,All I can do is sit down and stare into space with a face more blank than a canvas painters are afraid to touch.Feel pinned against a wall with a dagger as big as my list of mistakes throughout the last three years of my pathetic existence.Seemingly possessed by a vengeful spirit too exhausted to... Continue Reading →
Stars twinkle emphatically the darker it gets,Glowing mightily in response to your signals of distress.Their sounds of silence speak louder than thoughts disturbed by past trauma I still cry over!But…My cheeks still refuse to grin in light of Breath,Flowing through my body as I'm knocked to ground,Face down,While cushioned by a chest I believed to... Continue Reading →
Struggling with our sense of belonging is quite common.I mean,All of us desire family,A group to be apart of without ever going bitter,Rotten.But,Sometimes?The apple falls far from a tree left forgotten.Not a single pot of water poured into the ground,But,A pot of marijuana smoked while surrounded by the sounds,Of your dreams…Crumbling along each step taken... Continue Reading →
What is this feeling rotting inside each pit of my mangled soul,Where hot lava flows,Dropping all along a set of bones,Refusing to erode?… I don't think I'll ever know.Because,It flows in different currents,And.It's been reoccurring,During phases distinct from each other in a life I haven't been sure of,For the last several years… A guaranteed misery!Pondering... Continue Reading →
Lately,It seems as if I can only write about the raging despair I feel coursing all throughout my entire body at maximum speeds I never thought were possible.After all,It's apparent how I've been a prodigal son in the eyes of guardians who defend my fall from grace as I climb my way back up to... Continue Reading →
Have gotten closer towards my goal,But,It keeps moving up a few feet.I mean,How many times can I relay the same problem,Until I drop!As everybody strays away from a race we take part in,Exhaustively? Maybe once,Twice,Or thrice,But,Anything past three is pushing an envelop sealed shut with motor gasoline.You'd need an extra gear to speed past a... Continue Reading →
I wouldn't know where to start after fasting for 24 hours straight regardless of how hellbent I am to change my entire life.Because, no matter how angrily confused you've been for the past x amount of time, you'd think you'd know the beginning to a new life you've built inside of your mind already. You'd... Continue Reading →
What got me through a day of work?The possibility of killing myself after clocking out.Honestly,My only source of motivation as I'm nodding out every few seconds since it's taking everything I got in me!To…End the night,Without blood splatter in sight,Regardless of how desperate I am to,Die… What?Would you rather read the words of a liar... Continue Reading →
Beginnings we desire are always the hardest. Way more difficult they are than the ending our gut desires us to write and the Beginning it knows we have to write. But, the, heart? Nope. If anything it'll convince you to run away from your current circumstances and drown within murky waters of passivity. After all,... Continue Reading →
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