"I coin a phrase, For me to change, And pay for my sinz…" – m3l0dic
So.For the last 8 years of my life,I haven't heard many say "Happy Birthday,"Not a single "Happy New Years,"Haven't gotten a single phone call.Not a single message trying to check if I've been holding on,Strong… I've just…Been a struggling soul for others to be entertained by while littered,By promises I was convinced were sweet,Yet,Went bitter.How... Continue Reading →
Attempted to die today,But,Failed miserably.And,It's not because people have been sick of me.It's not because my family hates me,I hate them equally.It's because,I'm tired of reaching up to God while crying for his presence hysterically.Just…Another day where I feel like the Lord wants nothing to do with my life,While I sit back,Break my sobriety with... Continue Reading →
"Family, what is it good for?" Is what I find myself asking after being forced to wake up by sounds of death and depression produced by the void of my youngest relative's heart made of stone with malic acid for tears. For starters, disappointed I am in myself for still living under the roof of... Continue Reading →
Stalk me as much as you feel necessary.Waste as much time as possible living a life so sedentary.All you do is sit and watch my moves with a pocket filled with copper tunes,Jingles only addicts are familiar with while you pop a few,Pills if you don't feel like "crushing" your dreams at the moment.A vampire... Continue Reading →
Don't know why,But,Most assume I never feel pain.That all is okay at all times,While I lay perfect on a bed surrounded by snakes.What most don't realize is,I don't have a family.Those akin to my blood would rather have me dead as they growl in insanity.They eat while I starve and pray for sanctity.They stalk every... Continue Reading →
"Ah! What a pLandemic this will be, my friends,' I said to myself the second I caught wind of a lie that would pummel our minds more than our dying bodies. A lie that reminded me of a particular tie I am beyond ecstatic to cut away and disintegrate… Unfortunately (to some, yet fortunate for... Continue Reading →
Only two more days,And…I feel as if I'm holding on for dear life.Startled,Of all things,But…I only have one goal in sight… Sobriety.So elusive,Yet,So close to me everywhere I go as long as I choose to,Lose it.Dispose of it instead of using it,For managing a Molotov of emotions by setting on fire with every flick of... Continue Reading →
Words have been hard to find lately.I've been angry,With no one to hug while armed with a joint baking,In the middle of a palm I'm trying my best to take back control of before,I need anymore saving than I already do.A palm that once did everything I commanded it without question!But,Now it won't listen unless... Continue Reading →
The Void.A place where no man nor woman full of joy would dare dwell in.A lifeless vacuum imbibing everything uplifting a smile unseen in Darkness.An eternal damnation where those who have given up drown in,Their only place of contentment…It's…It's nothing but a place full of horrors our human eyes cannot fathom without,A faith in Light... Continue Reading →
To be He who is never sought out,By Day-walkers and Night Owls,By relatives with an audacity to steal my towel,Every time I drop tears forming oceans of pain coming from the bottom of my bowels,By anyone who claimed they cared when I couldn't have my fowl!Feels like…I don't exist in a world burning from Lucy's... Continue Reading →
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