One must address that dress causing stress in avenues I rarely feel pressure in.I may be a man,Yes!,But,I respect myself enough to never give in.Being a player's player,A Pimp with honeys cradled under both arms as a man seeking prayer?Is just,An equivalence to a man attempting to stand next to God as a naysayer… Yet,I'd... Continue Reading →
Writing My Escape Route #2 – Breitling Kind of Guy
Rolex watches have never covered either of my wrists.How can one have a wrist full of gold by isolating from anything bright lingering around them with,An open flame burning beside a journal catching fire every time they're focused on a spliff they must split!From… Yet,I digress.I refuse to burden anybody with addictions everybody is sprung!Over…Throughout... Continue Reading →
Repentance
Repentance.Allowing God to rip every chain off of my bruised ankles and wrists.Turning back from every demon who thought they could frolic in my mind for all of eternity.Saying no to every craving leading me to my unfortunate demise.Grabbing the hand of your inner child and pulling him back up from an edge before he... Continue Reading →
The Dark Hour
Yes,I often think of suicide,But,Still have the courage to refuse such atrocity.Because,My life was given!It was never mine to take in the first place regardless of how many demons got to me… After all,It's my job to thwart them off of my shoulders.If I don't,I deserve every consequence that looms over my soul.If I coast... Continue Reading →
Prize Nobody Wants
You can't imagine all the pain I brazenly bear while,Stigmatized as an animal who feeds off of despair.But,What others refuse to see?Is how I'm just a man growing sick and tired of apologies!Others never care to spare… So,I've isolated.Got to make sure to stay away from what would not embrace me while left forsaken.By family... Continue Reading →
On The Ledge
No one ever knows which day is their last.For some of us,It is an attachment similar to a bungee jump beneath a bridge.Instead of losing yourself inside of shallow waters poured by the outcries of Anger you haven't dealt with,That rope of smoke grabs you just in time to pull you back onto the ledge,Until,You... Continue Reading →
Sober Thoughtz
Sober thoughts are so exciting!Like,Being able to smile without feeling like a criminal on the loose.Like,A trip to Cold Stone just because I can with nothing inside of my ailing heart to lose… Often I scream for an abundance of freedom my inner child keeps demanding for good reason!Yet,Fear of a different life shrouds my... Continue Reading →
Not All Family Matters
Family wouldn't make it a point to remind you how no one cares for your existence.Family would never cross lines you've set in sand to thwart off all kinds of maliciousness.Family would sooth your battle scars after every hit and miss,Regardless if you're wrong or right in whatever position you're in.So…Where was mine as my... Continue Reading →
F The Tooth Fairy!
Sick…Of so many things!But,Mostly how we show each other love in the strangest of ways.Like,Our greetings on most days.Some start by saying,"Hey!How's everything?Hopefully you're doing swell!"Ending it there without a restraint even if they notice you aren't doing too well.You might even get a pat on the back,Maybe one on your ass,And!A big ole' middle... Continue Reading →
Writing My Escape Route #1 – Silhouettes Of War
Been at the library for the past couple of days,As it gives me a sigh of relief.A sigh of relief from sitting on my bedroom seat,Watching what an algorithm thinks I'm interested in without ever asking me… Just a few years ago,I was standing on my own two feet,On as many stages I can possibly... Continue Reading →