Beginnings we desire are always the hardest. Way more difficult they are than the ending our gut desires us to write and the Beginning it knows we have to write. But, the, heart? Nope. If anything it'll convince you to run away from your current circumstances and drown within murky waters of passivity. After all,... Continue Reading →
Trickz Of A Weary Mind
Paranoia isn't a symptom for me,But,An enemy lurking within shadows I conjure on concrete shattered by,Their darkness.Farfetched it is not when I stomp as I walk without rhyme or reason.After all,I'm marked as a menace in plots set as my prompt for my loss of life to rise like a soaring Phoenix… Perseverance.A charm despised... Continue Reading →
Wolf In The Mirror
Alone in a world of wolves,And,I'm just a dog with bone that would.But,Why bark at a pack with ribs exposed to an eye that's full!Of hunger and rage,Left unsatisfied without slumber and grace.Salivating to revitalize my life by making up for many blunders and pain,Others felt from all of it… Accountability.The cost of pointing fingers... Continue Reading →
Gates Of Valor
Meticulous in thought during moments my mind should be blank.Moments where my hands should be moving faster than a heart beat speeding up from a lack of funds,Gone away in smoke burning blunt after blunt.But,There's just so much pressure on my shoulders.Feels like the weight of everything I must do is crushing me as I... Continue Reading →
Tick, Tock, Another One On The Clock
Addiction.A Monster residing in its own class.A mind full of dualistic principles.Where It will crown itself king for municipal control for boatloads of cold,Hard,Cash… Anything!It will do around the city for another hit of Lies in your hand…It'll converse and kick it with you!With a mouth full of tricks convincing you of starry nights you... Continue Reading →
Writing My Escape Route #2 – Breitling Kind of Guy
Rolex watches have never covered either of my wrists.How can one have a wrist full of gold by isolating from anything bright lingering around them with,An open flame burning beside a journal catching fire every time they're focused on a spliff they must split!From… Yet,I digress.I refuse to burden anybody with addictions everybody is sprung!Over…Throughout... Continue Reading →
Repentance
Repentance.Allowing God to rip every chain off of my bruised ankles and wrists.Turning back from every demon who thought they could frolic in my mind for all of eternity.Saying no to every craving leading me to my unfortunate demise.Grabbing the hand of your inner child and pulling him back up from an edge before he... Continue Reading →
The Dark Hour
Yes,I often think of suicide,But,Still have the courage to refuse such atrocity.Because,My life was given!It was never mine to take in the first place regardless of how many demons got to me… After all,It's my job to thwart them off of my shoulders.If I don't,I deserve every consequence that looms over my soul.If I coast... Continue Reading →
Sober Thoughtz
Sober thoughts are so exciting!Like,Being able to smile without feeling like a criminal on the loose.Like,A trip to Cold Stone just because I can with nothing inside of my ailing heart to lose… Often I scream for an abundance of freedom my inner child keeps demanding for good reason!Yet,Fear of a different life shrouds my... Continue Reading →
Rotten Apples
Why is this rotten feeling inside of me whenever I'm not clouded by weed smoke?Why can't I just smile and enjoy the day without a teardrop or two drowning that possibility away?Most call it anxiety,But,Maybe it's my refusal to be myself in world that stopped inspiring me,The day my ex left me in dumpster of... Continue Reading →